Yesterday I came up with a 103 degree fever. XP (that was an emodicon for people too young to know) so today I'm stuck at home trying to complete all my work while reminiscing about things. Also don't worry the fever dropped by 4 degrees overnight. I slept for 9 and a half hours which is honestly more then I've slept in years.
This whole election thing is so stupid, I was at the library yesterday and all these Trump people were busy hugging eachother and yelling about how great they are and as someone who needs to vote for Kamala to survive... it just made me uncomftorable. It's so hard to tell whether the world is even... good. There's a chance we'll all die in the next 10 years and I can't tell how many headlines are fearbating or scientific. I may not even be able to live in Texas in the next 10 years and that's sad. I want to do something about climate change.
I wish the world was just nicer to us, like I'm not even trans I'm just a person who wants to be cute sometimes yet society is forcing me into being in this trans box! Why won't they allow men to just be what they want! I mean, I get the neo-pronoun mindset of abolishing gender by oversaturating it but I think the right way to do it is just by calling us all they or it.
Man, that fucking Plastic Beach album... too good, too real. Climate Change is a bitch and... you know.... I'm kinda confused. Why didn't Trump win the 2020 election? I thought people loved him! Would never betray him! Yet... sleepy Joe won? Maybe... maybe there is hope for Kamala. I dunno.
It's a scary time but, it's not like I can just wait it out, I still have to live.
I get so fucking pissed when people say they wanna live in the Y2K era because yes, i would LOVE, ABSOLUTELY ADMIRE to live through the aesthetics and technology of the turn of the millenia but... do you really want to live in the year 2000? Ok, asking myself that question I say yes but, people smoked, were more of jerks, people were more mysoginistic, transphobic and homohobic and the world just sucked more. I mean really I'm starting to beleive the world never gets better or worse, it always just is. Good things make bad things and bad things make good things. I love people, and I love myself. I just... want to love thi-what am I saying? No really, what even am I? ughhhhhhh! It's like I should just pick a side but I can't, ok? I'm more then one thing! And also go fuck yourself, but know that I want you to be happy. See? This is stupid! It's like I'm Cold Hearted but with the heart! ...I really hope Kamala wins, I want to be able to live in a world that will want me, want a girl like me.